Minutes Finally Mattered

Two years ago, when I first visited Singapore, I found myself at an MRT station during a rush hour. I remember that i skipped a few rides as i cant understand why people would go rushing in, when the next train will be arriving in 6mins.

Fast forward 2 yrs after… after a company closure, much needed change of scenery but definitely to increase my financial power i found myself in singapore this time am one of those ppl who cant wait for the next few minutes.

time flies faster and life is not all happy-happy like back home. But GOD decided to put me here, so I am making the best out of the situation.

Good luck to my singaporean adventure!

Back or Forward

A “rewind” back to the happier and crazy times… YES I will still want that… Maybe…

But what i really need is a fast forward. I don’t have regrets, all i want is to move forward and a little faster

Big Girl

Today I did a few things that my heart did not approve of, but my brain is saying otherwise. So since i am bigger girl now, all i can do is trust that everything will be well in the end. When i finally cross this phase all will be worth it. Dear GOD, please cobtinue to guide me.

tough!

toughest year yet but am sure it will get better as god has a reason for me to be here.

PRAYER

On a boring night, while ken was busy relaxing on the sofa and while i was hungry for a “chika-mate”, we started talking about my future room here (in Singapore), I stressed that I should have housemates who will be OK if my future boyfriend will be sleeping over. Ken laughed. Seeing this I pointed out that not really frequently but occasionanally. Ken laughed even harder. After finally getting it, I flatly said that it will happen soon since i just completed my novena.

After the chika i silently prayed, “see that GOD. I was mocked. It’s really time you grant me that wish I’ve been praying for years.”

AMEN!

28 and dramatic

So when I was in an elevator on my way to my friend’s apartment, where I’ve been crashing, sleeping on a couch for weeks, when I suddenly realized how lost I am. I’ve always been lost but not like this…

28… unemployed… broken-hearted… in an unfamiliar place… But best of all, too skinny. This normally makes me ecstatic having been on a diet for years. But it’s too drastic that it gets me worried.

Wishing so much to get a fast forward. Hoping so much that am in a place where everything is better, well and peaceful. Where I can smile the brightest… but then again, I wouldn’t enjoy my life without this drama.

Some old fortune teller told me am getting married at 28. hahah! Oh well I got 6 months…

may pinagmanahan

i have been telling my dad that i have a copy of the ‘SPARTACUS the series’ both season 1 and the prequel. but he proudly said he already watched it.

and so last night while he was watching the rerun on HBO. i again told him that i have the copy and he didn’t have to watch it on TV, as my copy are uncut with R-rated and gruesome parts. but i thought he wasn’t paying attention.

however, early this morning he asked me to setup the dvd. he told me he’s gonna watch my copy of the series. i did as i was told and was surprised when he tasked me to operate the DVD as such that he can only see the ‘bastos’ parts.

haaay nako! now i know where i got this pornographic mind. love u father!

Holy Week!

I am normally not allowed to go on vacations during Holy Week. normally i would spend it at home and church. but since my mom (the ultra religious) and I are not exactly on speaking terms i finally got the chance to go have a vacation with friends. (i am not complaining though)

sharing some pics and my editing prowess

siquijor

28 and still silly

since i am given sooo much time…

and with that comes a lot of anticipation for my 28th birthday. all the good, the bad, and the ugly thoughts are well entertained in my idle mind. and if i dont cover up the depression with happy thoughts, then i’ll be one of those sulking girls that feel old. something i learned from laughter yoga, you can’t fool the mind, but you can fool the body. so i’ll act happy that am getting older so even if i’m sad i’ll still hopefully look young since am almost entering the prime age 0f 30.

so i organized a little get together with friends so we can wait for my birthday. with only 5 attendees look what i made. the things you do when you have so much time.

Gaga will turn 28 really really soon

i am turning 28 in a few days and still i am…

whiny, ungrateful, bitter, unbelievably sweet , sinful, loves my friends and family unconditionally, panicky about the future, still searching for the ONE, porn addict and a lot more…

… almost the same since i started this blog at 25.

a huge change though, i am unemployed and my birthday wish for this year aside from that one person everyone is looking for, is to find a job that will be best suited for me. i hope and pray to GOD he listens and grants my wish. i haven’t been the best daughter the past few months.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!