My Life Now

 

3 Years after I graduated from college and 2++ years after I transferred here in Cavite, it suddenly occurred to me that my life though not completely different has made quite a dramatic change.  I may even consider myself an adult now…

 

My college days has all been about school, family, friends, and financial constraints. If there’s so much I remember about college, it is my dad struggling to make ends meet. But still life is much simpler then. All I worry about is baon, assignments and upcoming tests. But then most of my fond memories are from those times. I still consider college as an awesome part of my life. But…

 

Now,  I worry too much on finances, can’t splurge on just anything yet coz I give a little to family and pay the rent, bills and utilities. I seem to have more depression moments now and sometimes I worry too much on my own issues. Gone were the days when I listen and worry about other people’s problems just because life has been too stagnant and “problemless” and now hard to admit, I think I miss my family a little less, I think I’m liking it here. Maybe I’m building a life out from my former comfort zone where I could easily run to my parents when things don’t go my way. Now I guess, am on my own.

 

Now, I live with a friend and sometimes life gets too boring, we most of the time spend life indoor, occasional shopping at thrift shops or sometimes just have quiet (or not) dinners or coffees with friends from work or our “compoundmates”. Life should be simpler but then not, decisions are done mostly on my own, parents are not much help,  friends not much of assistance. Now I am the driver of your own life, passengers are just giving directions but am still in charged of the wheel. I don’t completely like it, but I guess being in charged and being on your own means that I’ve grown up a little.

 

Amazing as it seems I have really gone quite different from the person I was then. Before I was just studying because there is nothing better to do and I was preparing for the future. Now am building my future, whatever I do now will certainly make the days ahead. Now there is too many things unknown, people just come and go, work maybe great now but probably not tomorrow and the possibilities are just limitless. Well one thing’s for sure, college was fun but I guess the uncertainty of growing up is much thrilling.