I woke up with severe pain in my tummy. A mixed feeling of wanting to poop and being hungry. So I went to the comfort room then grabbed some food (after) which was left to whatever me and my roomie stored from the previous weekends.
I thought to myself the day didn’t start right so like most of my days maybe this day would really suck!
It really isn’t…
I (of course as well as my colleagues) got gifts from our counterparts from shanghal.
I got to complete a lota tasks.
Squeeze in some blogging moments.
A good talk over lunch with friends
Do the remaining tasks for work again
and now am back to blogging
But then in between those I just feel..
That nothing seemed right. Am still bothered… I’m still mad… But then am not really giving in this time. We probably needed space from each other. And I think, my feelings for him grew to certain extent that he was too confident I’d always be around or maybe I was expecting too much from him knowing that this thing that we have isn’t really the real thing.
At some point of it all, I’ve come to really hate myself, the person I’ve become and the person I am too him. I need enlightenment on this. I’m soooo new at this I seem to be handling it all wrong. Haaiii!!!!
..STILL don’t know unsa inyo issue. BUT i know u like him gyud na na affected na ka,oh well…hope we can talk about it more.
hope ur OK.
don’t hate yourself,but try to change how u handle this.you can slowly let it go nalang kay dba, mu lakaw naman sad sha?
just a thought.
yah! infairness! am trying to not miss him anymore… pero lisod man!