A Recap On My Not So Happy Ending

 

Felix left last sat (june 28)… Despite him knowing for a week, I only got to see him last Friday. I tried to convince him to see me and maximize his time left here, yet he really did not agree until the day before he left. So Sad…

 

It was sooo sad spending his last night with him. We tried to keep it a little normal but the air of sadness and knowing that the next day would be the last hug, kiss and conversation was just too much that most of the time there would be complete silence between us. He was thinking and I was thinking as well.

 

After 4 months of being together it was the only time we asked those basic questions. What u like about me? What you will miss the most? Can u imagine a future with me? Do you love me? What will happen next?

 

I successfully managed to not cry. He made me promise or else I could not see and be with him that last night. Whenever I’d hug him he’d try to look at my eye and see if I was crying. I really was that good in controlling it.

 

I helped him pack and buy gifts. The saddest part was seeing the clothes he wore on our dates in his luggage. Imagine the heaviness in my heart, as I put his stuff one by one in his bag. We’d occasionally be nostalgic talk about our last 4 months that even me sitting on his couch while he was lying down on his bed fighting was even brought up.

 

There were a lot of promises… meeting again in Hongkong, regular communication, and being loyal to each other. Though I know that in time all these promises would slowly fade and we may slowly forget each other’s faces. Really sad! What mattered to me that night was that I got to see him, hug him while he slept and then got a sweet kiss when he woke up.

 

It was really sad that on our way to cavite, all I did was cry. The pent up feeling from the previous night finally came out.

 

It was brief and it was sad and yet I think it was the perfect ending to a not so perfect romance. I miss him soo even after days that he was gone. All in all, I am still quite glad that I got to meet and be with him in a maybe brief encounter in my life.